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I am Lazy blogger.. It can be guessed by the Gap i have took between my last blog and now...
A lot had happen in between.. some can be shared and some been buried deeeep inside the heart...
Afghanistan, I have neva understand this country since the time i have arrived here . At times it gives me hope and strenght but at the same time it makes disappointed and week.. out come confusion confusion confusion ................., One of my hope and desire was to return back here and work for the better future.. .. but the state of confussionness has over shadowed my Dreams and desires ...

Sometimes i think is it worth of being here??.. since a normal Life span of human may be 60 years or 65 Years and i have already crossesd 26 years of it which means almost half of it.... does it really matters what i feel or desire for this country .. i can have the best of fun in India .. or then this Brain arises one more question that may be every afghan has this desire in their heart to be an active member in rebuilding afghanistan and bringing back its old glory but there has to be some one who spark that Josh or that fire... again within a moment may be faster then a blink .. this brain comes up with brand new question .. where are the men of this nation who had an apprehensiveness or idealogy like the The Martyr The Great Masoud our National Hero , First President of Republic of Afghansitan. Martyr President Daud Khan and Martyr President Dr. Najibullah .. None of them are alive .. everytime a compassionate son of this soil has emerge is been killed.
Alot is there to be said on the issue but due the limited free time in office .. i am concluding this topic as a bleek past, uncertain present and confusing Future....